I know some of you who will be reading this post might not understand any of the terminology or even why I live like this. But if nothing else I hope it encourages you to strive for the best and gives you hope for life in general. So let me preface this with the two statments I try to live my life by.
1.) Love God and Love people
2.) Don’t worry about it
With that said right now I feel like I’ve been placed in a pressure cooker and the heats been turned up on it. This is a time of learning I know but when your in it It feels like your struggling to swim kinda like when you catch your edge wake boarding, being slamed by a wave, or wrecking on powder and just tumbling you don’t really know which way is up. You just know to hold on and wait. To keep swimming. I feel like that’s where i’m at right now. Just holding on doin what I know and waiting for some sense of orentation to take hold. Leading a school has been an expierence learning to balance your time between hanging with students, responsiblities, and life in general is trying to say the least.I feel like my time has flown by and I wonder if I’ve missed what God has had instore for me. I try my best to teach a bunch of students how to get closer to God and rely and trust him to care and provide them but after taking a year off from everything I just wonder how much I actually believe it. By that I mean is what I say I believe is just a bunch of ideals and just a really good idea or is it an actual belief and practice in my life… So as the heat is being turned up I’m looking at my life and asking these questions and relizing that some of them are belief and other have slid back down to just an ideal. It’s frustrating. So I guess needless to say I’m trying. And it looks like it will be along road of rebuilding habits and learning to trust, but I do know one thing my God is faithful to complete what he has started in me I’m excited to see what is going to happen inthe future. As I continue through this journey of life trying to stay transparent and real as I continue to fall on my face and pick my self up and not give up to press into God as times get rough and journey gets hard. To trust and know he cares for me. So I guess I’m just asking for your prayers. That have the strength and endurance to press in. The wisdom to teach and meet people where they are at. To be honest with myself. That no matter what discouragment will not come. And that support will start to come in. If you want more specifics email me at firstname.lastname@example.org or email@example.com
Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings and hear my heart